When I reached Ottawa it was mid-
winter and everything was
covered under a
mantle of snow. Even parts of the
swift-running Ottawa river were frozen hard, with
people skating over it. By March the first signs of thaw began to appear. A three-feet wide
swathe running from the Parliament
House building to the main roads was ablaze with snow melted, tulips sprouted all over the garden. I had spent many weekends skiing at the Gatineau Hills and marvelling at the bare trees with cylindrical tubes of ice
covering their branches, tinkling like chandeliers when gusts of wind blew over them. They were now covered
with tiny leaf. At
Vancouver it rained three days and three nights non-stop. On the
fourth day I took a
stroll in Stanley Park. The wet paths were
strewn with snakes. I was at
Victoria, where we
went by boat the next day, that I saw
nature at its gorgeous best. Empress Park alongside the hotel was ablaze with flowers.
Peacocks and quails
scampered along dew-washed emerald-green lawns
glittering in the sunlight. I walked across the park to the edge of a cliff overlooking a deserted beach. The snow covered peaks of mountains on the mainland
were reflected in
the deep blue waters of the
ocean. I stood transfixed by the scene
around me. As if to complete the mystic experience, I saw a young couple come to the beach, look around to make sure there was no one watching and divest themselves of their clothes. They frolicked about on the sand, ran into the sea, found it too cold and came out to warm themselves in the sun. They embraced and started to make love. I watched them taking turns being on top, quicken their pace and collapse in a blissful heap. It was a perfect end to a perfect morning.
Reading these words brought a little sorrow back. Canada would have probably been what I had been looking for a long time. It is not escape that I was looking for. I love my life here. However, I feel a little constrained and wished to explore new avenues. I know one thing. If I had wished to go there, I will go. I have this image in my mind which will come true. That's how I work my life, I imagine things really hard and make them come true.
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