So here I am with my CGPA staring at me. I have been avoiding the calculation for a really long time and when I finally did; wham it hit me on the face. I was really upset for the first half of the day but in the evening I finally sat down and thought. I checked my armoury. Pulled out my latest tools and said, "This is it boy. This is your challenge." 

I am tired of complaining about it to others. I have never been a dependent guy. Always self motivated, I don't remember going to help to somebody in school. This was not arrogance. The reason I say it was not arrogance was that I was humbled by his presence. Back then, I had a ritual. I used to lie on my bed and then get up to drink a little water. Then I used to call out to him and discuss the day. He too shared his experiences. All this while my eyes were closed. It was a lot of fun and I really looked forward to that part of the day.  After a minute, I used to lie down and peacefully go to sleep. However, he left me in college. Rather, it was me who left him. Never did I speak a word when I was happy and experiencing new things. I called him once or twice I wanted something but I could only hear silence asserting its presence. Two and half years in college and I have been humbled. Today I am going to drink water again. I will call out to him. I know he is angry but I know him better than anybody. I will call out to him every night and talk. He will talk back one day. I know. I know for sure.