I truly believe they are parallel. Everytime I do something which I can link to my sin, I punish myself. However, those punishments are not enough. It looks like they will never be enough. I found my closure. But I am still waiting. I am still waiting for it to completely unite itself with its counterpart. Thus, I feel numb. I feel dead.

People make assumptions based on their past experiences. It might not be the optimal decision but it is justified. It sometimes hurts but it is acceptable. However, it becomes a issue when people close to you make assumptions and don't give you credit. It hurts when they easily jump to conclusions without giving due credence. It is like you never made those efforts. And it is true that they are the only ones who know that you can make exceptions and you do make them. Well, then I don't think it is wrong to feel annoyed when they blame you for the lack of effort. Slowly over a period of time you would even stop making these efforts. You loose the desire. And then again you grow numb. Dead.

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